Sunday, July 08, 2007
today was exhausting! but totally exihlirating! ( i forgot how you spelt that! ) i had 2 matches today, singles and doubles but i lost singles, had a good fight for doubles but eventually lost haha. it was a terrific experience though, terrifying, yet terrific. the pressure, the sweat, the laughter, and cheers and finally the tears. they make my life so worth living :D
its glad to have played with sophia today. i played my singles at 2pm with a really good player named gladys who was 18 and seed 2, and she was a very crafty, tricky played. i tried to up my game a few times, but she outsmarted me and her dropshot was simply too good. i was proud of how i played though, managed to keep my head in the game, and i felt that i improved tremendously. i lost 9-2 in the end though, like 5 sets were sudden deaths and i felt so much pressure. i hope experience will lift that pressure barrier! could hav gotten at least a 9-5 or 9-6, but she was a much more seasoned player, and i was glad i had been given the experience to test myself and to keep up the strong spirit and not break down after losing 3 sudden deaths in a row. i really thank God for giving me that courage.
but when the match ended when i was walking off court, i dont know what came over me, i just literally broke down and i couldn't stop cryiing for like 10 minutes. my mom was there and she's like 'you played so well' and all but i was thinking, it wasn't my match that brought me to tears, but the distance i had to run in order to catch up to her or supress myself. had work, and alot of experience, but i know i can definately do it. i mean, how can you not if your number #1 fan was your mom? (: today, i realised how much my mom meant to me, and how dearly she let us persue our own dream. she's always there to support us, an i love her dearly.
then i rested for 15 minutes and then, at 4, was our doubles match! sophia played brilliantly! her groudstrokes were like wow, flat power strokes, and i was better at the net today. i did about 5 pretty good smashes and i didn't feel as nervous at the net like i usually did. soph was such a great partner, and the pressure got the better of me. we were so clase to victory yet so far, but we played well today! we lost 9-8 (8-6) tiebreak which was very close.
haha jeremy came to support for a while after their training. thanks :D
anyways, i need to up my game and hopefully, i and improve truckloads in time to come!
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i went to church in the morning, felt like the Lord was kinda calling me to go, i don't know how or why but i just went with my mom. they said something which the Lord said to me a few days back. He wanted me to call upon him everyday of my life, not only through the tough times like thursday where i couldn't control my tears and emotions, but every single day. thats why he did what he had to do to prove that point, and i was doubtful at first but this morning, he told me again. the pastor said, don't call upon God in times of trouble only. i was like whoaaa.
then they started reading the verse for the service that day. guess what it was? psalms 23 -.- the verse sulin asked me to recite to her by heart and the one and only verse i could never ever forget.
i met a few people at the church lunch and they asked me to join their cell group. they're all kind of young adults 1 or 2 18, 19 and people were just quite nice but it was a bit akward. at least my mom won't be so lonely going to church everyday sunday now that she has me :D haha!
ps; my mom bought me lipgloss today! haha so sweet and she would want tme to go for a make-up lesson as a part of my 'part-of-growing-up' thing to do. i swear, one day, i shall master the smokey eye effect without looking like someone punched me! :P
